I’m sure you have been in a place where you feel as though you are not worthy. Whether it be worthy of LOVE, worthy of time, worthy of this life, the list goes on and on. Recently I have been a little down and out regarding whether I am really worthy of BEING LOVED. I feel as though we can all relate to this, at least at some point in our lives. Being worthy of LOVE is a big one, for me. If I feel worthy of someone else's LOVE it allows me to feel on top of the world. It allows me to feel that I am worth living this life and that I can take up space. But then, what happens when the opposite happens? Feeling UNWORTHY of LOVE makes me feel insignificant, small and in turn something’s wrong with me. Why can’t someone LOVE me? Why can’t someone LOVE me the way I need to be LOVED? Even deeper, why won’t someone accept my LOVE?
Personally, I have so much LOVE to give. Most of the time, I feel like it just pours right out of my heart directly into the rest of the world. Most of the time, I feel full of LOVE. It is such a wonderful feeling. It allows me to see the world in a very different way. Everything is bright, colorful and absolutely gorgeous! I am able to be present and mindful of everything around me. Then one small thing can change that, which is usually…
Rejection.
I try to remind myself that “rejection is protection”, it’s the way the Universe, God, Angels, whatever you believe in, is shifting your path so that someone else can come in that is better suited for you and can meet you where you need to be met. Boy does this suck though! I continue to be rejected, in terms of relationships with humans. At the moment it cuts very deep and stings badly. I question my worth, my ability to LOVE and be LOVED and even down to the type of person that I am. Am I a bad person? What did I do? Could I have done something different? If only I wasn’t this way or that way, maybe then they would have liked me. Then reality sets in, I pull myself up by my bootstraps and remember...
Protection.
I believe that I am not the main driver of my life. I surrender to the Universe and its ability to have my best interests at heart. I have asked the Universe to use me as a beacon of light to guide others on their path. With that comes protection of my choices and what’s best for me and the greater good of all involved. Sometimes I lose sight of that, only for a little while, then it comes back and I am able to be at ease with what is happening. Knowing that I am taken care of by energy greater than myself.
This is why YOU (and I) are worthy of it all. The Universe doesn’t judge. It will guide and ask us to have the courage to close a “door” so it can open another one for us. Continuing to teach, overcome and grow into the being we are meant to be.
Sending you all the LOVE and Gratitude.
xoxo